I want an XBMC

I'm eyeing on building home media centre, streaming media to TV, etc.. A "vacation project" maybe. XBMC. woots

Btw, happy 22nd to me. =)

I almost forgot its existence

Oh my, I almost forgot about this blog's existence.. Weekends after weekends, guess I'm too busy to blog. At least here's one entry for the month of October.

BUT. I forgot what I wanna say already. Sigh.

Failed BTT? Nothing worth mentioning. Just take again lo. HA

Feel like visiting IKEA to buy something to makeover for my bunk/room.

What if, I no longer blogs....

Gosh, what happened to me?

Just an outdated photo.

Right now, I can only think what has NS done to me, all the NEGATIVE stuffs.

Less motivated.

Less disciplined.

More nua.

More lazy.

Why like that?

Where did the old positive me gone to? Will things change for the better after I ORD?

Of blogger, weekends and health

This is the long overdue screenshot that I mentioned I couldn't even upload the picture. See that old school HTMLs like < a href = blah > Publish Post < /a >?

Blogger got better today. Managed to upload picture but the layout still disgust me.

I want to upload a few pictures. Like my commissioning parade. I did it for my POP about a year ago. Just putting it here to leave a mark in this blog. It has been a few posts that I didn't include any photos.

My mind isn't working very well for the past few weeks. Feeling anti-social, undecisive and all. Maybe due to lack of plans; I don't even look forward to weekends as there's nothing for me to look forward to. I kinda like imprumtu meetups, starting to hate scheduling events in advanced. So I think I didn't enjoy the month of July/August that much, maybe due to NDP commitments?. But I think it is getting better for the weeks to come. I'm filling up my calendar. There is a list of things I want to embark on, I dare not list it down here for fear I might not have the heart/time/energy to continue on. Shall announce them when I successfully accomplished them. Hope for the remaining months of 2009, I will be smiling more than sighing.

Oh it really feels TERRIBLE being sick. Don't know does it hold true for you all, your body just knows when it is not working well and is on the verge of falling ill - mine just knows. And you could tell you're feeling different, weak, extremely lethargic when you are really really sick - unlike when you're just feeling plain lazy and unmotivated, though I thought both might just feel the same. And for me, I would actually missed the times when my body is well and fighting fit; I just don't wanna stay in bed feeling that I was gonna die, just terrible. It was just a 3 day of fever that earned me my long weekend last week. Didn't had fever in a span of days before.

Now that I am well, sometimes as I walked towards to fridge or somewhere, I would think to self, "oh good, I don't think I'm feeling sick, feels goooood to be well and energetic now". It just makes me appreicate my health when I have it now. Can't imagine when I'm like really really old with all sorts of illness. Crap.

Cranky

Google Chrome is getting cranky. It doesn't seem to load my pages completely/properly.
Facebook doesn't work well ever since Chrome 2.0. Thought 1.0 was so much better. Now it doesn't load some of the Nav Bar images, Ajax fails to function correctly, and I had to "End Task" Chrome for quite a few times! Grrrr!@#$@$%@#>

Now Blogger also protesting. I took a screnshot of it, can't insert it now; you all will know why when I manage to post it up. Shift-Refresh doesn't help either. Blah. Total spoil my mood.

Soon I gonna upgrade to Windows 7... Though Vista is working (very) fine, for me at least.

Been thinking for a while...
I want to have GREAT change in myself for the subsequent months.
1. STAY AWAY FROM COMPUTER -> Can I make the impossible possible?
2. WORK OUT MORE -> RUN, GYM, SWIM?
3. GO OUT MORE -> FUN, CLUB, EAT?

BUT when should I start? (By asking that question, the changes I had in mind don't sound too promising =[ )

There's so many people/friends that I wanna meet......... One step at a time. =)

Patriotic

Had this thought that I should abandon this blog. Why am I compelled to pour my feelings/thoughts here? It's like if I don't do it I don't feel good? It's like I've to feed this blog something at least once per month? Am I trying to prove something here? To who, myself? Or is it just a journal that archives what I've been through?
I don't have an answer for that, so heck I'll just type now.

National Day's round the corner. Just hope to use this chance to remind all of us Singaporeans to not take things for granted, complain less(stop f***ing complain if you don't understand) and help the unfortunate more. Use this time to also reflect on why are we celebrating National Day? What is there to celebrate? Are you proud to call this place HOME where your family and friends are? What will you do to defend what's yours and not let others taking them away from you?

It's in our instinct to be selfish and to always spot things that go wrong first instead of things that go well.
I hope we all can be *censored* (I don't know why I'm in a vulgar mood today) less selfish and appreciate the good things than pointing fingers at the bad things.

Ever since I chosen the poly path, I'm like always one step behind from my secondary school friends. It's like I've to live with it, I know. I am. Just that I need time to get used to each different phase of life. From them entering JC, taking their promos, mugging for As, entering NS for the guys, all the army talks, celebrating ORD, enjoying their uni orientation camps, and now starting of their school term. So each time when I meet them I must somehow constantly be aware of which stage of life they are now and I'm NOT at the same stage as them. Only then I can ask appropriate questions about their life so far, without anything to do with my life currently (future maybe). Maybe not exactly living in their shadows, though I can choose to look at it that way if I want to be negative about it. Also I think I've repeated umpteenth times that I do NOT regret my choice back then, it's a different route for me. Unlike the rest, my route some what is planned for the rest of my 7-10 years maybe? (Less the university part, I haven't completed the application YET =x)

Oh, did I mention, I am so enjoying my singlehood life =)

Lazy

It's the feeling lazy time of the month. Right, I've made that up. Don't know why, could be sleeping for more than 12 hours for the past 2 days - I just feel lethargic.

I'm an one-year soldier already. It's amazing what this one year has done to me. Seriously, I've never dreamt that I would go through so much pain, joy and laughter. And Love? Maybe all in the wrong place, wrong time. I realised I don't know how handle my emotions well too - as logical person as I might be. Life SHOULD be relatively easier now, 2 weeks into my new unit life, I'm kinda enjoying it. Shit haven't come in yet but it will come soon, very soon. Ok, maybe not shit, just more WORK.

I seriously have very bad memories. I just don't remember the recent things, things that I've said, people that I've spoken to, topics that I've discussed about. Now all these seem kinda familiar, I might have mentioned this is one of the previous posts. This is bad. I don't know what can I do about it. Maybe I shall eat more brain food - right, random.

Realised people have been blogging less. Looks like we all have our own life, especially so for those guys who are attached to their deary girlfriends who spoils them - they no longer blog and I don't know what's going on with their life. No activities on facebook too. I just hope they are not those got girlfriend no more friends type. Which leads me thinking, am I gonna be like that too? =/ Now I don't dare to promise much.

After being involved "inactively" in the NDP 09, I now look at this nationwide event from a new perspective. First, why "inactively" - by the time I'm involved, most of the comms stuff were up and there isn't any active role for me despite me begging for one. So I made use of the time/freedom around the marina platform, walking around, finding familiar faces, have a chat, going up to the so-call high-security-access levels like the control/comms rooms, seeing how the busy people work by the seconds, going down one corner to see how our logistics personnel working silently from providing food and water to clearing rubbish and setting up toilet points, and also see how our 3 star general along with Deputy PM/Minister of Defence got drenched in the rain together with all the Primary 5 kids and performers from all walks of life -all contributing to the making of this year's NDP in every possible sense. Their actions, be it big or small, be it at the behind-the-scenes or infront of audience, speaks a lot more. Imagine what could happen otherwise. I can choose to walk away, give reasons for not wasting my time there. Others too, they can just not participate in it, they can just run for shelter when the rain comes. But no one walked away when we actually have a choice to opt for a easier life.

I've learnt that we are all not noble to say we are here to defend our country, our home, for our independence, yada yada. These are just the macro picture that sometimes we don't give an f about. It's the little things - the people that have always been around us that we sometimes neglect, that we don't want to lose them, we want to protect them. People like your friends and family. It always starts from the basic unit - then it builds up to the big picture, our identity.

[To be continued...]