So far

Another ranting? Not sure if this is considered one.

Having lots of thoughts, overflowing. Almost forgot there's this outlet here for me.

Still haven't decided on my (overseas) uni application yet.
I thought being in the army was an excuse for my procrastination.
I thought the fear of the unfamiliarity was the reason for my indecisiveness.
But I've realised it was my parents who couldn't bear to let me go.
I've mentioned to them about "my" plan last year. They avoided the question.
I never thought it would be "our" plan. Am I inconsiderate about their feelings?
Surely this is an opportunity not to be missed.
No matter how matter how many lifetimes my parent(s) work, they can never able to afford to send me overseas. (Less the option of loans from banks - I wouldn't want to be in debt for life)
On their perspective, they don't see it as necessary. True enough it's not a "must go", it's just a "good to go".
My presence at home somewhat reminds the family that at least there's someone sane around.


I want to go for another backpacking trip.
I want to go to Sentosa with great companions.
I want to 'zhng' my room.

Journey thus far.
Quite amazed with myself, completing several previously-thought-impossible tasks.
A little disappointed that I still haven't bulked up yet, confidence level still low. =(
In any case, I just hope I can complete this race. To show others that I can do it, to do my parents proud. I can do it.

There are many kinds of people you meet in army. Overwhelming. I just need to accept this cruel fact while finding blessings within it.

2 years (or 1yr 10mths in my case) is just too long. Not so much about boys to men. More of appreciating every little things you have around you. There are challenges, and much of them can be easily conquered with that slight change in attitude plus a little perseverance. This tip is applicable beyond army too.

Things are moving faster and faster. Don't forget to stop and smell the flowers.